Birthday Eve

Well, today’s not been a bad day either! I’ve felt mostly happy, a fair bit tired, but not down or manic. So I think ^touches wood^ I’m levelling out at last! Just in time for my birthday tomorrow. 32. Wow. I’ve made it to 32 years of age. There’s been many a time that I didn’t think I’d see tomorrow, let alone my 32nd birthday. I’m feeling quite proud to be honest.

In 32 years I’ve done a lot, experienced far more than some, and I’m still here to tell the tale.

I’ve found the love of my life (after kissing a lot of frogs!), I’ve married him, had a baby with him and gotten our forever home with him. You could say I’m doing quite well for myself! We may not have it all, but we have each other and that’s what counts. Money can’t buy you happiness any way, it just causes a lot of stress and anxiety. You’ve never seemingly got enough, so why worry about it. It’s not going to change the fact. I’ll keep plodding on, as I’ve always done, and we’ll get by somehow. We always do.

Financial worries are always a big trigger for me to be honest; but right now, I’m working really hard on CBT techniques to try and not let it get me down. Some days it is easier said than done, but most days lately I’m doing okay….

I’m really hoping I get my PIP back; having reapplied during a bad spell, hopefully it’ll work in my favour. Could really do with the extra cash flow. Even if I only get standard rate, it’ll go a long way to help us out. I’d love to be able to pay off my overdraft and not keep living in it. And pay off my credit card as well. Oh, and the council tax I still owe. Money is just so tight right now, I just can’t seem to make ends meet. There’s always too much month at the end of the money, and it does get frustrating.

But, that said, we’re a lot better off than most, so we need to keep that in mind and be grateful for what we do have; clothes, food, a home and each other. What could be more important than that?….




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