So today’s the day I see my psych for the first time this week; I have another appointment with her on Friday, but whether she’ll keep it or not I don’t know.
In all honesty, I am absolutely dreading it. I’m scared to tell her how I really feel, but I know I need to in order to get the correct help. I just hope she does help me, and doesn’t just fob me off with pills. I want more CBT, I need a care coordinator or CPN. I need support in between appointments and to keep tabs on me until I see the new psych.
I’m still struggling with suicidal thoughts, urges to self harm, and the voice. It’s really hard to focus and I just feel so spaced out still. I can’t take it much more.
Will blog again later after my appointment. Wish me luck?!